-cheL|e- : wrapped up

Nothing in particular

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 14:59:49 GMT

Hilary duff - All Work, No Play

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la
Some people go through life like it's a breeze
They float their way through days
And never feel the grey
and their tears fall,
But they don't sting
Their temporary marks
Not always from the heart
They live lightly,
breathe so easy,
no digging in
So what's living

Chorus
No work all play
What a mistake
Let the clouds roll in and fill the sky
Get that meloncholy feel inside and
Work all yourself
To run from your bigger self
You don't have to slide
Life's not one big high

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la
Sometimes it's hard lookin' at yourself
You'd rather place the blame
Then point at your wrong way
I still do hide from my feelings myself
But I'm trying hard these days
Not to procrastinate
And face my fate
Stay on my game

Repeat Chorus

No one is perfect
No one's the same
We've all got problems
That we haven't faced
The challenges well
They'll make you strong
Don't put them off for too long

You gotta know yourself
To be yourself
You gotta do it all the way
You gotta know yourself
To be yourself
It's a struggle everyday
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
You gotta do it all the way
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
And it's a struggle everyday

Repeat Chorus x 2

You gotta know yourself to be yourself
You gotta do it all the way
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
And it's a struggle everyday
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
You gotta do it all the way
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
And it's a struggle everyday
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
And it's a struggle everyday
You gotta know yourself to be yourself
And it's a struggle everyday

Yes, i know i've said that i dislike the girl, but i can't help it if she has nice songs.

just one of those things

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 03:23:52 GMT

Ever had something you wanted to bring up but know you can't because it'll cause a rift in the relationship?

You know THINGS that are REALLY BOTHERING you, but you can't bring them up with that one person because you depend entirely too much on that ONE person. And it scares you to death that you'll lose that ONE person. So you just never bring these THINGS up.

But what if its REALLY weighing you down? What if its causing you so much pain? You just want an answer - "Why?".

Punctuality and Plans

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 13:42:58 GMT

you know what i like??
I like plans.
I like being organized and knowing when to do what.
I plan my day roughly and try to keep to it.

What i dont like?
I don't like being made to wait because of some other person's plans. Tell us to be there at a certain time, be ready by then.. and then they don't show up. Well, they don't show up till an hour later. It's not fair to the rest of us who are made to wait because of one person. That person disrupts the plans of others.

People need to be reasonable. People need to learn that there are other things that other people have to do. And when you need the help of others, don't make them wait to help you.
Remeber, it is YOU who ask for help. Not the other way around.

Be punctual!!

wishlist

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 14:12:21 GMT

chelle's wishlist now includes:

a perpetual contract with Wheels&Dollbaby - where i get to where and keep the clothes
face without pimples, blemishes and blots
fat vapourizer
a fairy godmother

my heart flutters...

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 18:17:17 GMT

When unexpected, it turns up.
You say the right things. You make me feel a little special. You make me feel everything that I want to feel - happy and a bit more.

You say just a bit more than you should.

I dont want it now. Not from you. Not now.
I dont need the late nights and overanalysing. I dont want to go through all that right now.

Maybe another time. After everything that I should do has been done. After I've dealt with certain things.

Christmas wishes

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 08:55:09 GMT

to those i cant see this christmas and to those who i can,

Merry christmas, sayangs! It's cold here, I'm cold here but nevertheless, we'll have a great sparkly time.

♥ Love.

p/s: I put in a word with Santa. Being a little naughty's just fine. You won't get coal for chrismtas. *grinz*

An act of kindness

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 22:37:04 GMT

An act of kindness goes a long way.

There was this young guy who was eating alone in a Malaysian restaurant in Chinatown, London. At a 6-seat table.

Then along came 3 ladies, a mom and 2 young girls (one of them being her daughter and the other, the tagalong friend). As the 3 ladies sat down at the other half of the table, they went on to scrutinise the menu to find the (hopefully) best tasting dishes in the restaurant.

The mom turned to her left and asked the guy "What did you order?".
The guy asked, "Where are you from?"
"Malaysia"
"Then the Wa Tan Ho would be nice"

A conversation proceeded and it was soon that the mom and the guy were talking in Hokkien.

The guy's order came and he in fact ordered the Wa Tan Ho and with that, kangkung belacan. He offered some of the delicious smelling kangkung to the 3 ladies. And the said "Try. don't be pai seh (shy)"

By the time he wolved down half the contents of his Wa Tan Ho, the ladies' food arrived. And he decided to call for his bill.

And he also called for the ladies' bill.

So this evening, we had a free dinner. Thanks to the lovely lovely man from Tottenham. Much ♥ goes out to you.
I shall pass on this act of kindness soon. :)

p/s: i think acts of kindness changes your luck just a little bit.

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 08:54:18 GMT

my legs are officially declared dead.

Had a great time last night/the wee hours of the morning (minus that ONE incident). Performing i think was the easy part. (yay! mel, we did it!!!) It was the walking back from Cafe Mondial part that was difficult. Not only was i hungry (you could actually hear my tummy grumbling), but my legs were aching from the extremely ermz "vigorous" dance session.

Sometimes people do disgusting things that infringe your personal rights and yes, you do feel like turning around and slapping the person REAL HARD!!! But, that's easier said than done. In that situation, I pulled Mel's hand and walked away. No, there were no guys on my side because well, the very few number of guy friends were either away caring for others, or away flirting with their magical girl. le sigh. And sure, they might say "I want to slap the fella". But will they actually go ahead and do that? No!! Oh well, what can you expect of people who dont have you best interest in mind.

Other than that, I had a good time. Much love goes out to my fellow dance-ketiers. :) Also to Mr Priviledge who walked me back and fed me fries. lol. ♥ you all.

grrr

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 00:10:26 GMT

DO NOT ENCOURAGE ME IF YOU YOURSELF, ARE IN FOR THE CHASE!!!!!!
DO NOT ENCOURAGE ME TO FALL HARDER!!!
DO NOT ENCOURAGE ME TO INDUCE MYSELF TO FALL HARDER!!!

IF you want the prized object, go ahead. it's yours for the taking! No one's stopping you!! No one's standing in your way!! All you have to do is reach out and grab.

But do not mock me when I'm better than you in something. Do not deny me my praises, my compliments, my moments to shine. Do not cry in outrage if somethings are more suited for me than you.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 21:44:24 GMT

| MH a.k.a. Cambium | - where is the plot? says:
hehe so wats new with u man

chelle - handle with care says:
how to answer such a question.
Still pretty much the same i guess..
how about you? besides claiming to be stupid-er..

| MH a.k.a. Cambium | - where is the plot? says:
haha lol
for a split second ther
i thought u said 'still pretty'

chelle - handle with care says:
are you kidding?? i'm stunning!!! grinz

| MH a.k.a. Cambium | - where is the plot? says:
haha yeah u are
like in that pic of ures
i notice u first

chelle - handle with care says:
thanks..

| MH a.k.a. Cambium | - where is the plot? says:
but only because ure heads the biggest

so potong stim...

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 21:56:06 GMT

my heart sinks just a little bit lower. Don't ask why.

Sparkles

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 20:20:50 GMT

She held out her left hand and he slipped it on to her finger, feeling as though he was claiming, for himself, the only prize that would ever matter. "It's beautiful. It's unusual. It will always remind me of you." She kissed him on the lips, "And it sparkles"

le sigh.

hopelessly hopeful

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 23:20:33 GMT

There's this little flower in a field of flowers. Its not extraordinarily special. It's not different from the other flowers. One day, someone comes along the field. Looking around, trying to figure out which one to pick. He doesn't want a bunch. Just one.

The little flower then unfurls its petals as widely as it possibly can, blossoming... blooming before this person's eyes. "Pick me! Pick me!"

Introductions

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 23:03:12 GMT

i'm terrified of introductions. Of the possibility of these introductions. Of the possible outcomes of these introductions.

London Trip 4/11/06

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 10:03:40 GMT

One of my life's goal has been achieved.

Chelle went on the London eye. [check]

It's just too beautiful for words. The view was just simply AMAZING!!! I can't find any words fit enough to describe the spectacular-ness of it all. We took the evening flights and it was... *sighz* I know a picture say a thousand words, but the photos came out blur and so we can't do the London Eye justice.

The company was amazing too!!! Love them. Love Love them!!! In the morning, we were with Krystal, Ee Liv and gang. We went to Harrods and i finally tried the afamous Krispy Kreme. I didn't really find anything so "orgasmic" about it. It was like well, a normal glazed donut. But hey, at least I can say that i've been there and done that and didn' like it.

In the afternoon, we met up with OBS and Sok Yen. It was these 2 sweeties that we shared the adventure with. After buying the tickets, we had McDs and then rushed to the what i call "tower" area. Tower Hill, Tower Bridge, London Bridge. The view was also amazing. And yes, we did manage to take many pics. It was just such such fun. :) Finally, it was back to the London Eye and well, you know the story. We had tons of fun trying to take a clear pic up there. lol. Well, a clear pic with us in it anywayz. But i think the sweetest part of the story is that well, the backdrop of Big Ben all lighted up and us kissing each other on the cheek before we descended the capsule. Shall remember this for the REST of my life. ♥

We had a WONDERFUL dinner in chinatown in the Malaysian Restaurant there. Now here, the food was orgasmic. lol. It was a very yummy hokkien mee, a lovely lovely prawn noodles soup/ha min, and Kampung-style fried rice. Oohhh... home in a bowl and a couple of plates. *grinz* It was just pure fun swapping dishes with each other, swapping cutlery, And yes, we had CHINESE TEA!!!! Oohhh... heaven. Mr OBS, you made the right suggestion. *hugz*

After a short diversion to Lillywhites, we finally took the correct (lol) trains home. Yayness and overnighted in Wessex. Got a room courtesy of Mr OBS. Love him, the dearie. Love Thong for his hairdryer and Love everyone else for shampoo, conditioner, soaps and other necessities. And the laughs. Oh gosh.. *chelle gets stitched up with laughter*

So I wanna thank my Ms Chan Weili, the lovelies Mr OBS and Ms Lim Sok Yen. Love them to bits. Love Krystal and gang, as well. And of course, the Wessexers. Love each and everyone of them to bits. ♥

Aikz!!

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 06:52:48 GMT

the world is possibly at a low!!!

Back home in Malaysia, a grandmother got raped by her teenage grandson. The sadness of it all. That incest be committed on a 75 year old lady, is just too much.

just me being pissed. IGNORE.

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 00:02:06 GMT

STRESS!!!!

OMFG~!! Everything just doesn't wanna work. I'm in a pissy foul mood and nothing can be done to stop it. Need... emergency...chocs... AARGH!!! i've finished them all!!!

My laptop turned blue during dinner. Then it turned purple while i was chatting to weili. I'm so freaked out and worried. Worst is, i REALLY TRULY don't know what to do. Have to find Dell's number and call them about it. Aargh!!!! Sometimes being mollycoddled is good.

Then, i find my heater NOT working when the temperature is going to drop freaking negative degrees. Aargh!!!! I do PAY an accomodation fee you know! It's not like i haven't paid it. Its so fucking expensive and i don't get a working heater?!! Then whats the point of installing the stupid ugly white thing in my room?!!!! I don't want to wake up in the morning and not be able to move because i'm frozen.

And if i'm frozen, nobody would know because my laptop refuses to work. And nobody would notice anywayz. Nobody would fucking notice that i'm gone!!! Yes, i've once again been discarded and pushed aside. Nobody notices the double-chinned chinese girl with the terrible eyebags and crooked pink spectacles. I can't go around parading a "NOTICE ME!" sign. But yes, once in a while i'd like to be acknowledged. That i exist.

Shit. I'm pissy, foul and depressed!!!! AARGH!!!!!!!

The truth

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 16:22:32 GMT

chelle = unattractive. *sighz*

A woman

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 06:23:57 GMT

Be very careful if you make a woman cry because God counts her tears.
The woman came out of a man's rib.
Not from his feet to be Walked on.
Not from his head to be Superior,
but
From the side to be Equal.
Under the arm to be Protected,
and next to the heart to be loved

Laptop loving white!!!

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 10:21:53 GMT

OMG!!! my laptop decides for a change of colour and like any child that wants its parents proud shows me the colour it loves!!!

It changed its mind from green to white!! aargh!!!

Laptop loving green.

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 07:19:00 GMT

I think the aforementioned actors are wishing me ill-will. :(

Not to sound like a overzealous superstitious freak, unfortunate things have been happening to me. So far, nothing physically bad has occurred. Just minor things like my laptop gets infected by weirdo viruses (eventhough i HARDLY or DO NOT AT ALL d/load things). My laptop decides it likes GREEN (no offence, Mel.. green's nice and all, but hardly the colour to go with my laptop) and just stops abruptly everything I'm doing and my whole screen is green. An ugly army-like green colour!! (I think I've finally found a colour that i truly hate!!!) And as everyone knows, michelle ain't a tech-savvy person. SO she starts freaking out at the sight of this colour!!

[In another location, someone's doing voodoo on a lil michelle doll]

Thank god, it decides today that it'll work for me. My baby doesn't wanna rebel. Yayz!!

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 15:02:53 GMT

i wonder in amazement at how some people know me for a relatively long period and still do NOT know me at all. Perhaps to them my "new-found" characteristics are deemed UNACCEPTABLE!! Of course, they won't say it directly to my face. Rather, they'll go behind the scenes and ask one of the supporting actors in my series (of which i'm the star, but of course - we are all stars of our own world, are we not?).

I think ALL my characteristics are ALWAYS present. I'm a very "your eyes magnifies your thoughts" person, after all. I think it's whether people choose to actually REALISE that "Yes, it IS there!!". However, don't blame me when it suddenly jumps at you and you just CANNOT take it.

It might be a case of "can't be better than me" for these people. You know, the Malaysian kiasu-nism. Just because one fails to see that I CAN be better than you (ANYONE can do better than you/me/he/she), doesn't mean that I CAN NEVER be better than you. No one gets hold of a category steadfastedly. The turtle won the race after all. (Yay, turtle!!)

I think it is high time that I weed out the actors who are ruining MY show!! Time to kill them off in my series (perhaps, with a cancer here and a car accident there)

lalala... *chelle hums an occupied tune while writing script productively*

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 06:39:15 GMT

Much Much Love to BMWMG for bringing me to London. To Smelly, for risking Aunt Doris's apartment. Thanks to Mars for helping me with the luggage. Love to Weili for just being there for me. *smacks three big kisseroos on all* Thank you for all the lovely lovely gifts. I love them all!!!

Many thanks and love to Ms Lim Sok Yen, Mr Lai Kooi Thong, and Mr OBS, for coming over and braving the VERY cold weather just to wish me Happy Birthday. ♥ to them 3.

Thanks to Kate for the lovely lovely gift (although she can't view this page)

Thanks to Mel and Xian Ai for just remembering its my bday. Much love to both of you as well.

For all the emails and testimonials i received, thanks.

Mostly, thanks to my lovely lovely family for giving me this chance to be in UK and for constantly being there to love me and support me. Thanks mom and dad for the BEAUTIFUL gifts. *muax* Thanks to jie, for sending me a card all the way from back home. I love you all and miss you all thoroughly.

♥
Michelle

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 06:26:34 GMT

HYPOCRITES!!!

Trees

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 06:26:13 GMT

GROW UP!!!
NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU!!
THE SUN DOESN'T OWE A DUTY TO YOU TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU'LL GROW!!
SUN WILL PROBABLY SO, "GROW YOUR FRIGGING SELF!!"